MtaurNovel Chapter 40
Chapter 40
Chapter 40
In the previous life as well as in this life, it was the first time that Tennoji experienced what real heartache is.
His limbs felt cold, his body seemed to have fallen into an ice cellar, and his heart throbbed with cramps. He seemed to be unable to see the surrounding scene or hear the surrounding sound. Concentrate and forget to breathe.
Is it a hallucination?
He thought this over and over again.
Yes, it must be an illusion. There are magic and elves in this world, so it is normal to have illusions.
He said to himself over and over again.
He closed his eyes, told himself that it was just an illusion, and when he said that he believed it, he opened his eyes slowly and tremblingly...
The two people embracing each other seemed so eye-catching to him.
how can that be possible?
he asks.
This is definitely not Teacher Amway.
He said.
It's definitely...not...
He unconsciously pursed his lips, biting his lower lip tightly, his lips turned white from the biting, and his hands hanging by his sides were clenched into fists. Although he didn't have many nails, he insisted on leaving four deep bruises on his palms. Crescent seal.
However, even this kind of pain can't break the "illusion" in front of him.
The blond-haired Francois looked so dazzling to him, and the sight of her being held in Mrs. Amway's arms made him so jealous...
envy?
A flash of inspiration flashed in his mind, his body trembled, and his face turned pale.
How is it possible, why should I be jealous of her?
he asked himself in disbelief.
Even though it was a warm sunny day, it made him feel extremely cold. He faintly encountered the truth that he didn't even know.
The body couldn't help taking a step back, as if he couldn't accept that fact.
It's ridiculous, how could I...
He wanted to deny it himself, but he couldn't say the rest of the sentence.
What a joke.
he said to himself.
The scene in front of him made him extremely uncomfortable, but he still watched intently, every detail of the movements of those two people seemed to be engraved in his heart.
One sum, another sum...
The pain that spread from the bottom of his heart stimulated his tear glands, but he tried his best to open his eyes wide, not letting the mist that gradually rose in his eyes block his vision.
He told himself that he didn't need to look any further.
But his feet seemed to have taken root, and he couldn't walk away, and he couldn't even turn around.
He didn't believe that fact any more than he believed what he saw.
But all his senses told him the vision was real, and he...
I like Mr. Amway.
All his reactions reflect this.
He let go of his swollen lower lip that had been bitten, but his face became even paler.
Thinking of how he once swore that his feelings were nothing more than admiration, he felt how ridiculous he was.
If it was just worship, why would he write like a madman to someone who didn't reply?
If it's just worship, why does he always change the subject without a trace every time he thinks about the topic of love?
If it was just worship, why did he blurt out that he liked someone when he was confessed to?
If it is just worship, why is he pursuing Amway instead of surpassing or following?
If it's just worship, why does the whole school firmly believe that he likes Amway instead of misunderstanding?
If it was just adoration, why would he be jealous of a woman who was held in Amway's arms and flirted with?
If only worship...
In the past life plus this life, he only met a person he likes in two lives, but he thought it was just admiration.
And the day he realized his feelings was also the day he lost love.
He really wanted to look up to the sky and laugh out loud, but he could feel the tears streaming out of his eyes...
At this moment, my heart seemed to stop throbbing.
He didn't know if it didn't hurt anymore, or it was so painful that he couldn't feel it.
He finally closed his eyes, though the action made his tears flow faster.
The moment he closed his eyes, he seemed to feel his whole heart calm down.
Then he heard his own heartbeat.
Are you still dancing?
Until today, he didn't know that he had saved his feelings for two lifetimes, and poured them all into one man.
But that person has his own heart, he is just a fool who has been secretly in love for many years without knowing it.
What should he do, or what can he do?
Opening his eyes, he saw Amway and Francois walking away together.
This is a doomed failure, no, a failed relationship.
That being the case, why not give up?
Giving up... Oh, it's easier said than done.
His heart seemed to throb again, he took a deep breath, and controlled his legs that were about to become numb to turn around.
What if you don't give up?
To destroy other people's feelings, or in other words, to post back?
His upbringing, his dignity, his will would never allow him to do such a thing.
It's just a dark secret love, let it be silent again.
he thinks.
He took a step forward, then a second...
***
Amway, who left with Francois, turned his head after walking a few steps.
He didn't know why he turned his head, he just did it subconsciously, but he knew that the direction was the direction of Tennoji.
But there... that figure no longer exists.
"Teacher Amway?" Francois looked at him suspiciously.
"It's nothing." Amway said to him, "I really trouble you today."
"No, it's my honor to help Teacher Amway." Francois said, holding Amway's arm and resting his head on his shoulder.
Amway slowly withdrew his arm, then touched the top of Francois' head and said, "I still have something to do next, I'll take you back."
Although Francois was a little puzzled, he still nodded, "Thank you, Teacher Amway."
***
Gare Montparnasse.
Less than an hour later, Tianwangsi came back here again, but before he left from Haitang and the others, this time he left by himself.
After boarding the train, he dialed Haitang's number.
"Liu Yi, I'm on my way to Mont Saint-Michel."
"Eh? Why did His Highness Mari change his mind?"
Tennoji held the mobile phone in his left hand, and drew with his right hand on the sketchbook on his lap, "About the previous design, I need to change it. I'm sorry, I'm self-willed again."
"It doesn't matter, I believe His Highness Mari must have his own reasons."
"Thank you for trusting me."
"Is His Majesty Mari on the train now? We'll be at the bus stop in an hour, do we need to wait for you?"
"No, I just got in the car, you go to the hotel to prepare the ingredients first."
After hanging up the phone, he looked at the design gradually taking shape in front of him, his eyes were full of determination.
Anyway, it's such a long relationship, let's use this game to see him off.
he said to himself.
Probably... there will be no more regrets...
The author has something to say: [The awakening progress bar has been loaded]
Isn't it very pleasant to hear and see?
Don't worry, this is the last time I will abuse Mari (probably).
One of the differences between men and women seems to me to be emotional. (Some) women are more delicate and sensitive to emotions, while (some) men are a bit the opposite.There is also this meaning in the choice to write about sexual transformation. It will take a while for female Mari to get rid of her feelings for Amway, while male Mari will be faster and more decisive. It does not mean that she can get rid of this feeling immediately. , just getting rid of [Influence] will be a little faster. (Only personal opinion, don't spray if you don't like it)
Thank you very much [Little Yellow Fish Meat] for throwing a mine!
Many thanks to [Sesame Stuffed Meat Buns] for throwing 1 mine!
Many thanks to [jun throwing] 1 mine!
Many thanks to [Broken Wing Angel] for throwing a mine!
Let's spend Chinese Valentine's Day together!